When I first wrote this piece in March (only to revisit it four months later) it came as I was putting together furniture and allowing my mind to wander. Sitting in deep thought, I was reminded that time need not be wasted on things that do not matter. When we give time to something it’s because it usually holds importance or we want to see it grow, whether little or big giving time to all distractions simply take us away from our purpose and life path. When the aha moment hit I remember writing so earnestly knowing I needed to get this blog out, what happened after was likely a tango with distraction. We have all sorts of names for the things that “tempt” us, we call it the devil, the ego, negative thinking, sins and what not but my bottom line is that it’s simply a distraction, but I definitely respect what you call it..
I had an ant problem when I moved in. There were a few ants here and there but I made it into an issue, I talked about it every chance I got and then I made a Pinterest Board on how to get rid of it, I cleaned everyday literally sweeping and wiping the floors 3 or 4 times, all the while I’m saying to myself, this is not the problem. I even said this out loud every time I would look down at the ants knowing I’m making this “issue” bigger than what it is. The truth is, as soon as I set down these borax and sugar saturated cotton balls, the ant problem practically disappeared. It took 5 minutes to set up and nothing to clean and I continued putting furniture together, writing regularly and working on what would become my website.
Occasionally I would see an ant that I’d let get away, but for some reason the little voice ego said “don’t! It will build a colony” but my knowing was clear in stating “one ant? No problem!” The more I stayed on track the less distraction there seemed to be but for multiple reasons.
First of all spending time with something that does not serve my highest good creates more space for additional things that do not serve my highest good. Ants are not the problem, but my obsession with having a problem creates… Say it with me! MORE PROBLEMS!
Secondly, I hadn’t looked at the fact that my living room, my bedroom and washroom were ant free, I only saw a kitchen full of ants (which it was not) because I accepted the ant reality as the only reality, I saw so much wrong, I could never see what was right and that was the only thing I was looking for. When you look for something, you will ALWAYS find it. To be clear, there isn’t a sometimes, you will ALWAYS find whatever you are looking for! I’m going to continue to see ants as long as that’s all I’m looking for.
The biggest lesson in this experience of distraction was coming to a further
understanding of the ways our ego works. The Ego is the illusionary self that seeks to encourage us to turn only to ourselves, away from the creator and others. The ego is powerful in distracting us from the things to keep us in our light, meaning to remove us from our purpose and life path. Whenever I’m working towards my dream I know how powerful it is and that it will lead to the fortunes I want and I am worthy of, in the grandest and holistic, all encompassing sense. But the Ego tells me that I don’t truly want to be in my light, I don’t truly deserve those riches, and I should be afraid to go for it because. So instead of focusing on the goal, there I was focused on the Ants. The Ego is a part of us so it knows what could work to distract us and that is why it’s so important to be in alignment with our light and life path so we have the strength to overcome the measly distractions.
So after much time being in alignment, I noticed recently, I couldn’t seem to get it together, my wrist started to hurt, everyone I knew wanted to go out for lunch , dinner or coffee, the long weekend was coming up and I felt overwhelmed with very dense energy and could not get it together. I also started to see ants again and I was definitely not working on any new creative pieces. The ego knows what works best to remove me from my light, it took one coffee for me to open the door to say I’m always available and slow my process of becoming what I dreamed of. So here now revisiting this piece it forced me to stop and assess my life for the distractions I’m giving time to and enabling. My current distraction is people and the choice I made was to allow them to come in and out as they please which is where I gave time and space to be distracted.
In some ways this piece was a letter to my future and maybe yours too, I hope you get the chance to be in your awareness enough to see the distractions as they come up and make the choice to stay aligned. Lots of Love and lots of Light I send to you all in staying on your path and fulfilling your purpose.