A Conversation between Man and Spirit.

This piece came to me several months ago as I was discovering how amazing this world truly is. My mind raced for the words to do a short write-up of what I was feeling but instead it came out as a conversation. I left this for many weeks before I came back to it, I barely remembered what I wrote, but surely enough it sparked the reminder in me that we are, as I am, as the universe is… Perfect.

Human: Why is life such a struggle?

Spirit: It doesn’t have to be, but we choose to make it that way.

Human: Look around! Everyone’s out here struggling to survive! Why would anyone possibly want to live in a world of turmoil what good can come of this!

Spirit: In the everyday, physical sense it appears to be a struggle, it even appears to be imperfect. But in many ways this is just a part of the process. Things may feel like they’ve gone astray but in the same token, we could not come full circle if it weren’t for the progressions and “regressions” that make this world move.

Human: I know what I see… There’s nothing perfect about it.

Spirit: You know what you see, but you know little of what you feel.

Human: I know the facts

Spirit: And I ask you to go beyond that.

Human: There isn’t anything beyond the facts! What else is there to look for? We exist here and now in a terrible world of chaos and struggle, it’s all right before your eyes.

Spirit: Your soul lives beyond this local, it travels, it wanders, it searches for answers and understanding, it seeks to replenish and to reconnect what was lost or what it feels is missing. It seeks its permanent and rightful place as one with source. Isn’t that what we’re all searching for?

Human: I seek security and safety…

Spirit: And who else could provide that in this world but source? Who else can provide that in spirit but source?

Human: I’m going by what I see and what exists here, I know what I know and I am well-informed about what is in front of me. Humans need security to survive, those are the facts.

Spirit: You are well-informed by misinformation, but poorly informed about your actual situation. Yes you exist here on Earth and believe it or not you actually know quite a bit, but your lack of willingness to know all, has led you to accept you can only know some, believing this is all.

The world is beyond your distorted or caged vision. If you seek knowing t

han you need to open yourself up to what exists beyond physical intelligence and seek to know all intelligence.

Human: You speak in parables

Spirit: And you speak fables, looking only to satisfy the immediate and short-lived pleasure of having a sense of security knowing little as fact, but feeling like the fact is all you need to know.

Human: I know enough, I know enough.

Spirit: And that is enough to create the false sense of knowing. The ego can be a powerful thing.

Recap: Sharing Circle

“Sharing circles are an essential part of the oral tradition of Aboriginal communities.
The Traditional Native Feather Wand or Talking Stick is used in these circles
when meetings take place and when decisions have to be made. We learn information
about our culture through our Elders, families, friends, and other community members
who share stories about what their lives were like, why we do things certain ways and to
seek the wisdom of their experiences.”

– http://www.ravenspeaks.ca

With one Elder among us, sharing the importance of family as the tool that has helped her to connect and heal, Merlyn James, my mom, started off the circle on the best note. She was unsure what to expect when she made her way into the backyard, knowing only that her daughter was stepping into her purpose and that she needed to be there to support. Thank you mom for being who you are and reminding all the women in attendance that they are part of a family that began that day, also known as the sharing circle community.

 

Being a mom of three young children she was in need of adult time and felt it was time to get out more and make connections with great people. Lauren traveled from Etobicoke to get to the sharing circle with her youngest son. Ready to remind us of the ways Father Yah has transformed her life, her marriage and her family. She spoke about the word of Yah, the truth and shared the importance of his word and keeping his covenant. No judgement existed towards others and no judgement sent to her, as we often see when discussing different lifestyles, the sharing circle was a place to share equally in love and pull what was necessary to help us become our best.

Most of us came in unsure of what to expect we all just knew there would be good vibes and information that would move us. The Sun was hot that day but in the circle there was the most pleasant breeze, as though this event had been perfectly situated. We heard your message loud and clear Creator, the circle was perfect. With this being the first sharing circle I’ve ever done I realized there is some to improve but it was so perfect in the way it happened that I almost want to do it exactly the same. And while I will spend some more time to focus on the tradition as an opportunity to share the indigenous knowledge that powers it, I also hope it will be enabled to transform to suit the energy within.

If you didn’t make it to this circle don’t worry there will be more. Remember nothing is missed and everything is perfectly timed. The circle was complete on June 11th even as visitors came and went and it will continue to be an example of completeness personified. Thank you to the women that came out and those that hoped to, we are connected regardless of where we go and where we came from. I will tell you when the next one happens so just come, be open and hopefully you will bring a friend.

The paralyzing power of indecision

We find ourselves on the cusp of so many things that we know the answer to. We feel powerful knowing the answer but for some reason doubt creeps in and that challenges what we know to be true. Throughout my life I’ve been successful at many things so I truly can do whatever I  feel strongest about. However, most of the time I allow my thoughts to brew the doubts that have guided my worst decisions and I give them the chance to compete with the feelings that guided my best decisions.

It appears as though my entire body is in competition. My feelings are battling my thoughts, my heart battles my brain and so I can’t come to a single conclusion about the next step to take. Indecision is riddled with a lot more than what meets the eye, for inside we feel like it’s just me, when in actuality there’s an empowerment of this feeling socially.  Socially we have placed too much weight on every single decision we make, because we worry too much about whether we’re making the “right” decision when we need to make the decision that is truest to ourselves. Now the simplest things such as “do I want a sandwich or salad?” or “should I hang with friends or be by myself?” become paralyzing questions. Next society throws consequence into the mix, but only in black and white terms – you have to know all the answers OKAY! So now we are affixed with a single story of outcome when we know there is so much more possibilities I couldn’t know till a decision is made. Then socially everyone raises questions of doubt and worry instead of making statements of support or understanding and all of a sudden, we’ve literally stepped out of ourselves and into a space of uncertainty because we left our truth inside. Now I’m undecided. That’s just society but there is also a part of us individually that holds hands with indecision.

Inside we have the ego, but we also have of heart. We have our higher selves, we have our spirit, we have our chakras and everything bundled into this beautiful thing called our ‘self’. We are energetic beings so we are negative and positive (nothing can exist without the two) which means we can carry the most powerful feelings on opposite ends of the spectrum. We have this natural ability to enable one or the other to be more powerful but ultimately our goal is to find balance. Indecision is actually a lack of balance from within though it might appear as middle ground. The imbalance exists when we no longer feel in control or unsafe (fear shows its head again) then we stop feeling the answer and we start thinking about it. If anyone knows a thing about the mind they know it’s powerful enough to create chaos in simplicity, so that’s the last place you want your choices to travel to. To balance it out we can take back control, remember that we are always in safety and be okay with letting our feelings guide us.

Here is indecision presented visually, picture it as you go along. We feel cornered by our options, they keep getting closer and closer, it even grows fangs and becomes scarier than it started, we absolutely have to make a choice so we say, “I choose indecision”  and

we go into the fetal position (the safest position a human can take with least exposure, I’ll expand on this another day). When we look up, we still see the choices and we get even more scared and tighten our fetal position forgetting that babies spread out eventually.

The internal imbalance coupled with the weight society puts on making decisions continues to disrupt our ability to come out of the fetal position and make decisions that work best for us. Again I’m saying to you to take back control, remember you’re safe always and be okay with showing YOUR truth which we find in our feelings. Consequence is not black and white and there are endless possibilities you may not have a clue about – don’t waste time going there. As long as you make your decision out of love, truth  and that genuine feeling of knowing that the universe has your back, God has your back, the spirit squad and your higher self has your back the best outcome is sure to manifest. The choice is always yours (unless divine intervention is necessary) let no one, not even your ego self, question that. Indecision is a decision so check in with yourself:  Are you in the fetal position or are you making a choice?

 

Lack: where am I creating from?

The four letter word, similarly to love, impacts us multi-dimensionally. As I say the word lack, I get a heavy hit to my chest. I don’t know whether it’s this physical space being impacted or my spirit I just know it’s a powerful force. We trust that nothing can be full so we create from this

space of lack. I feel it, I embody it, and I experience nothing short of it in today’s world where lack is the only thing that we enable to exist. Even more powerful is the surrounding belief that we could not possibly have all without someone else losing. Where did this belief come from and why does it continue to prevail. Why did we say okay to feeling less than complete when our soul was always whole.

I’m not going to battle with lack for to battle is to become, and lack is where I already exist, it’s where I’ve been drawn into combat for a long time. So now I’m going to rise above lack because then I can look back to see what this thing really is and maybe I might be able to help clear it for others. When we create from a space of lack something will always be missing in the same way that when you create from a place of love, love will always be present. We can entangle and enamor a project in lack or love in the same way we can make something that grows in positivity or grow in negativity; we can disable ourselves with one and enable ourselves with the other. We can choose how things grow simply by thinking about where we allow the creation to start. Not how or where it starts but where we start. This is a very different than what they would have us believe.

Example: The picture is drawn in a studio: that is where. The picture starts with a touch of paint hitting the canvas: that’s how. But where we begin could either be with the feeling of hopefulness or hopelessness. Finally, what is created in the end will be a reflection of where we began until we decide to make a change in ourselves.

Let me give you a look into my life, I would really like a family, in fact I look at everyone around me wanting this so much, but I also recognize they look at me wanting what I have so much. Often the troubles we find ourselves in later, come to life only because we decided to create the future based on the lack that existed in the past. I recognize how much I want a relationship but I have to ask: what do I really want? And is this coming from a place of lack or love.

Situations can find love in them. They can start with love and eventually become a place where lack dominates. I’ve been in relationships where there was love everywhere, but then once I realized I was no longer the main actor or I realized I wanted more than what existed, love was a theory and lack was the “reality”, something was always missing for some reason. The lesson I learned at the time however, was that I should choose a better suitor…  haha! When in truth, I should have learned more about where I was creating from.

The bottom line is this, lack creates more lack and love creates more love, very basic. But rather than question what is lacking in effort to seek out an answer, we can just begin to create from love and recognize completeness from its root. If you find that this piece is missing something, take a guess where I wrote it from or maybe take a guess where you understand it from.

How I choose to expose my Self.

If your imagination stretches further than what’s covered in the media, where do you put the ideas that are generated? A blog of course. From a young age I had big issues with writing, most words didn’t connect the feelings I felt or the thoughts I’d think. Eventually after much rejection in the writing world aka school, I figured I should just write for myself and so I did. Hello Microsoft Word and eventually Evernote, this amazing cloud app on my Ipad (the very first one Apple came out with – I still have it) I wrote my finest pieces with at least one thousand spelling errors and the worst use of grammar.

Even though I’d be considered basic by any academic and journalistic standards, to me the message was clear and powerful, I can’t spell for shit but I certainly have a message to share with the people feeling alienated by the mainstream. I remember feeling a sense of accomplishment the first time I wrote, I thought I uncovered new history, but really I just solidified my knowing before I knew what it meant to truly “know”. I sent my thoughts (that definitely wasn’t “writing”) to my friends Lauren and Shamari, then sent it out to my dad. My dad was impressed, Lauren felt it was very “true”  and Shamari said I should expand. With the feedback I did nothing but continue to write LOL.

Fast forward to 2017 the year of one, where I decide not to be scared anymore and to step into myself, being uncomfortable with exposure, but feeling powerful in my nudity. I will write  about the universe, the social ills and wills, the greatness of God, the power of knowing, and the ability of humans to be more than the limits of our language, I just hope you won’t be afraid to venture into these topics as well in the comment section 🙂 The time to share is now; how dangerous of me, but also how lucrative.  Within the create.blog side of this website you’ll see full exposure of my thoughts and my heart in other words one third of what makes up my life’s bottom line.

I promise I’ll try to keep it short or at least sweet.